Narrow but deep

I need courage to understand that my mothering instinct is right, even when others want to imply that it is not because it is not like their instinct.

From the April 2009 issue of Lake Norman Currents Magazine…

I am lying on a bed that is not mine, reading, when I realize that my eyes are getting heavy.  If I were in my own office today—a work day—I would never be lying on the bed, even though I work from home and plenty of my work could be done from my bed.  It just wouldn’t seem like I’ve gone to work at all, and so I don’t allow myself the luxury of reading or writing or editing from bed although I bet most people think that those of us who work from home do. 

 

I let my eyes shut.  My mind thinks about panicking over this, and then gets over itself.  My body does, too, and I relax, allowing myself ten minutes of unfettered sleep.  When my eyes reopen, I am ready to return to the book.  I burn through sixty pages in just over half an hour.  I let myself rest, and my mind and body reward me with greater efficiency on the other side.   

I am at the Starrette Farmhouse in Statesville, a soulful sanctuary established by Ann Starrette to offer a place for people to reflect, for a No Agenda Day, a monthly retreat planned by Starrette and Nicole Greer whose vision on the second Friday of each month is to help people refresh and recharge.  Other retreaters before me have succumbed to naps, exhausted from the pace they run each day.  Some knit.  Others hike.  A few work on writing book chapters.  They dream, pray, or read.  No two people’s days unfold just the same.  Many sit down with Greer, a life and business coach, and plan for their personal or professional futures or learn about themselves through the Path Elements Profile assessment she administers.  I am here because I have gone broad for too long.  This year, I must go narrow but deep.     

 Read the rest of this essay in the look book for Lake Norman Currents Magazine…  (this link will open the ‘look book’ for the magazine then scroll until you see Narrow but Deep.  You’ll find the above pull-out quote there!). 

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